Wednesday, March 30, 2011

I'm lost and I can't find myself

OMG! It's almost been a MONTH since I last blogged?

Geez louise! My apologies. More to myself although I'm sure you guys are beyond devastated that I haven't checked in *winks*

Before I get caught up on this, I need to vent.

I don't know what's going on with me. This past week, since my last weigh in, I haven't had an appetite. I've felt very very down. I've had zero energy. NO i'm not pregnant, thank GOD! LOL! I have undeniable proof of that before ANYONE jumps to conclusions. Not quite sure what's up with all of that but it's making me nuts. I know i NEED to eat as I feel I'm destroying my metabolism by not eating, but DO I eat when I'm not hungry? I feel like i'm retaining water like crazy and therefore feel like a dang balloon!!! ARGH!

PLUS weigh in is tomorrow. ARGH! I can always skip a weigh in but i feel like that's cheating. An easy way (weigh) out. heh. And I don't want to do that. I'm on a 9 week losing streak so I'll be hella disappointed if I see a plus. I've been really good though, honestly. For the past week i've had like 5-8 points leftover at the end of the day. so i'm not sure if i should make myself eat even if i'm not hungry, or if i shouldn't. Oy.

Anyhoo, I'll get this caught up very soon. Definitely tomorrow. Things have been utterly, ridiculously busy which is good. But i'm having trouble keeping my head above water. That needs to change as well.

If you find me before I do, send me back to me :o)

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

2 for 1 deal

Sorry I've been a stranger and haven't updated. It's been very hectic! Let's recap...

The week of February 17th we drove to Lafayette to clear our house out to put it up for rent, and so I could teach some mommy n me dance classes. I was VERY nervous about traveling and sticking to what has been working for me. It's easy to say, yes I'll go to the store and buy stuff that's working for me, but we've been SO busy it's easy to just stop and pick up something instead of MAKING time to prepare things. Well being that weigh in on February 17th was before all of the craziness, I wasn't TOO nervous. I had a loss of 2.4 pounds (equaling a total loss at that time of 4.2lbs) and weight of 167.8! I was VERY excited to see the most lost at one weigh in!!! It REALLY made my entire day!!

What I did learn during all of that was that what's working for me is eating consistently throughout the day. Eating things with more protein and better grains. Less sugar, and less of anything refined. More veggies and fruits for snacks. And PORTION control. Also logging what i'm eating is making me incredibly mindful of what i'm eating and of course of my portions! I'm finding that if i don't have my oatmeal for my morning snack, my appetite is all out of whack for the rest of the day. The past two weeks i haven't been consistent with it, and I feel like my blood sugar does crazy things through out the day if I don't have it.

We had a VERY Stressful trip with trying to get the house cleared out completely, but we did have someone sign a lease on our house to rent it. Regardless I am an emotional eater so it was very tough. We found ourselves eating out and I used my dining out guide but I never really realized how many points things have until I got back on this program. If we ate at McDonalds, even a grilled chx sandwich has a lot of points and it takes A LOT of hard work to make up for the loss of points and a LOT Of eating REALLY well the rest of the day! I don't exchange my activity points for food, so I have to really find low point foods to ensure I don't go over. I also try to not use my weekly allowance points often, as I allow that every couple of weeks, like this week when we had company from out of town. I like to see my activity points add up throughout the week and see if I can beat the last weeks total. What fun is it and what's the point if you swap the points out?! But that's just me! ;o)

Fast forward to the week of February 24th. A week of more traveling, stress from the house and trying to get back to Austin. I was fearful of a gain but decided to not beat myself up if I did in fact have a gain. I worked hard to make good choices when presented with not so great ones (the lesser of two evils) and hoped if I did in fact have a gain that it wouldn't be a big one. Weigh in comes, and I had a loss of 1.4, bringing my total to 5.6 lost in 4 weeks, which brought me to my first milestone of hitting the 5lbs lost goal!! The new weight is 166.4 lbs. I was VERY excited to have a loss, although it wasn't as much as I wanted, though I didn't expect it LOL!

This week has been my "hormonal" week which is ALWAYS tough for me, but i'm still working hard and making good choices. Physically I feel BLAH, but am keeping a positive attitude. Dax, pending his mood, and I, will go to the mommy and me meeting in Round Rock in the morning. If he's in a yucky mood, I will go to a regular meeting and have some ME time, as it's much needed.

I'm also finding myself getting a bit bored with some of my snacks, which is making me want to mindlessly snack, which is an old and bad habit, so any suggestions you might have are welcomed. I saw WW online posted some suggestions so I'm going to look those up and see what they suggest. I want to add some more power foods and hope I can find some zero point snacks I can add in too. It's exciting to see these losses and I want to continue it. I'm averaging 1.4 lbs lost per week, which i know is very healthy! I want to keep it up, b/c at the rate I will be exactly where i want to be at this time next year. I haven't had the energy to amp up my cardio and to add strength training. Thankfully the migraines have eased significantly t hanks to those meds so that is a huge help. i think once we get into our new apartment that has a great gym, I'll be more inspired, hopefully rested, to add that in. Speaking of, the migraine meds makes carbonated drinks taste HORRID to me, so i've been carbonated drink free for a month now! It's really quite liberating LOL!

So there we are! I'll be sure to update shortly after my weigh in tomorrow!