Bad Day

Argh. Today was a bad day in regards to everything.

Dax was in a funky mood, I was feeling awful due to hormones and that oh so lovely monthly pal, J was in a weird mood and made me very mad, and it was just overall a stressful, hectic day for me. Money is stressing me out, not being able to rent or sell our house in Lafayette is a huge stressor right now, and i'm just downright worn out.

So my funky emotions had me making funky food choices. I'm going to get back on the wagon tomorrow, but I feel bad for messing up so badly today. I know I can't beat myself up, but ARGH! I hate that I can be an emotional eater.

I have a dr's appt the morning of my first meeting, so I'm trying to attend an alternative meeting this week, and most definitely will be weighing in. I'm putting too much pressure on myself though, hoping the scale will have moved down. I need to stop focusing on that and focus on how better I'm feeling already with eating better and being more aware of my choices (with today being the exception). In the past few years that I've had struggles with my weight, the number doesn't seem to go down. I lose inches, but the number won't budge. Have any of you had this happen? I know inches are more important, but dang it's SO rewarding to see that number go down lol

We'll see. Thanks for letting me vent!

Beginning of day 2

I think yesterday went fairly well. I stayed within my points range, but at the end of the day I was still pretty hungry. I'm thinking I will adjust as I continue on the program, especially once I learn healthier, more high fiber choices that will stick with me longer.

This morning I looked through my information and had this breakfast, which i'm SO excited about:
2 packets instant, plain oatmeal (1 cup) = 3 points
1 tbsp blackberry jam in oatmeal = 1 point
3 egg whites, as an omelet = 1 point
2 slices of turkey = 0 points
1/4 cup mushrooms = 0 points
Total = 5 points

And I am completely satisfied right now. It was VERY yummy, filling, and I'm not left wanting more.

ME LIKEY! Let's see how today goes with better choices ;o)

W-day!

Today was my first official weigh-in at Weight Watchers. It wasn't a meeting as I didn't make it since I had an awful migraine, but did do the weigh-in and received all of my materials. I will go to my first meeting this coming Thursday, to the mom & me meeting, so Dax can play while I enjoy the meeting.

I met a few really nice ladies, and exchanged email addresses with one. She lives not too far from me, and is interested in doing walks together. I'm game, as exercising in that regard with a partner helps me. I went on a lovely hike with another friend yesterday, and felt great (although beat lol) afterwards. I hope to be able to do that once a week as well, and continue my walking on my own, plus I'm dancing 3 nights a week now too.

The official weigh-in is 172 lbs. I was really disappointed to be 2 lbs over what I thought, BUT this is a new beginning. I've already entered all of my foods into my tracker. I LOVE that they give a quick start guide, and suggest meals and snacks to help you get started and learn proportions.

This is going to be good. It's going to be hard work, but it's SO worth it!! I'll do my measurements with the help of J and enter this as well to keep track of inches.

W-day wasn't as bad as i anticipated ;o)

Back to it!

Well traveling proves to be a bit harder than i thought when trying to eat well and stay on a good diet. The past week(ish) was not quite as successful as I had hoped, BUT i did manage to watch portions mainly, and if I did not eat well earlier in the day, I made sure to be extra vigilant in watching portions and trying to select things that were healthier.

I also did not get to go on my runs/walks as I wanted since the weather was downright nasty but we're getting back to it this week. My plan is to start P90x again and get it done with Dax takes his afternoon nap. We'll go on our walk/run after his first morning nap.

I'm planning on going to the weight watchers meeting this week and getting my first official weigh-in. Instead of dreading it, I am embracing it and thinking about the first 10% I am going to work hard to lose. After I reach that goal, I will throw away my "fat" jeans and buy a few new pairs of jeans. Reward with clothes (or the like), instead of with food.

Do you have any suggestions for how to eat healthier when traveling? We're on the road A LOT and there aren't many healthy options when trying to stop quickly and get back to our destination. I'll be in Austin for close to a month without traveling (THANK GOODNESS) so I'm hoping to see some major results since I can stick to a schedule better!

Change is hard...

The past few days have gone so-so. I wasn't able to make my Weight Watchers meeting as Justin let me sleep in and I forgot to set my alarm, since I was depending on Dax being my alarm lol

And then we left to make the long drive back to lafayette. Last night and today, eating wasn't so great, but tonight was much better. I didn't make my walk today with all of my running around, but am aiming to get my walk in for the next two days. Saturday is my "cheat day" but since I didn't do so well last night and today, I'll stay on the straight and narrow. Sunday is my only non-exercising day, but since i didn't make it today, I'll keep it on for Sunday as well.

I'm TRYING. Traveling always makes it so difficult. Although there have been a few slip-ups, I'm not throwing in the towel.

NOW to weigh in. My scale died. Perhaps it's a sign?? lol

I'll write soon...a b'day party tomorrow for one of Dax's little baby friends, meeting up with a friend if she's up for it, and then a potential family bbq. I'm going armed with good healthy snacks and willpower. PRAY! ;o)

Here we go...this might hurt a bit

Well hello!

I can't believe it's been almost a year since I last blogged! I had promised to write more, but ya know, life happens.

Anyhoo, this blog has been redirected to focus on my weight loss journey. I'm very nervous, incredibly scared, very embarrassed. But I know I have a lot of support behind me. Doing this will help me stay accountable, let me vent, celebrate my accomplishments. It's far from easy, though. If you're reading this, I do appreciate your support.

So first off, my starting weight in this journey is....*deep Breath* (oh it makes my stomach hurt) 170lbs. AHHHHHH!!!!! I don't think I've told ANYONE what my weight is. It hurts me. Makes me want to cry. Makes me want to go hide under a table. Why?! I dunno. I guess b/c I used to be so in control of it, and now it's SO out of control. But there it is. I'll post my measurements soon too, as I want to see what the losses are every month.

I plan to join weight watchers tomorrow. It's been over 2 years since I last did weight watchers, and I think the new program will get me back on track with portions and keeping track of everything. I'll start with the meetings, but my time is very limited so I hope to go back to the online tracking, and blogging here with it.

So there we are. Last night I began my cardio routine again since we have access to a gym at our apartment. I ran 1.28 miles in 20 minutes. My average time was like 15:20/mile. Not too shabby. I didn't feel as bogged down as I thought and the treadmill felt good on my joints. Dax and I will go walking in a bit. It'll be close to a 3 mile walk. Being I won't be running on the concrete, I'm pretty sure I can get through a 3 mile walk ok. We'll see what happens.

I'll also be blogging a food journal here too. ARGH! lol It'll take me getting used to this, to not be overwhelmed by it.

So there we are. The first post of this. If you have any advice, words of encouragement, of course I'm always open and ready to listen. Support will be the main motivator for me.

Hugs and love.
Mindi